It's Time to .......

1st September 2014, marked the worst day of my life. I was called into my boss office. I thought it was the usual weekly meeting as business has been down lately. So I prepared my reasons and also plans to discuss on how to boost up the sales.

As I was asked to be seated, I saw my boss in a calmly manner started the conversation about the financial stress his going through with the company and so he continues, 'Emily, our overhead cost is way to high and I have no choice but to let someone go.' And I was like, 'Are you serious ? Who do you want to let go ?'. He said 'I don't have a choice but it's YOU that I pick. I'm sorry. It was a hard decision for me but I can no longer sustained your salary.' That's it. My boss choose me instead of anyone else. Do u know how I felt ? I felt like shit !! The company that I've worked for 4 and half years is kicking me out due to financial reasons.

At this moment, I am still shocked and speechless. I just need a hard slap to wake me up. The boss that I've put my trust and loyalty no longer needs me. Back than, I've had many opportunities to leave, other companies needed me and willing to pay more but I was stupid enough to surrender my hard work and trust for him. It's true what the former President of India, Abdul Kalam said in one of his speech, 'Love your job but don't love your company; because you may not know when your company stops loving you.'

Adding insult to my injury, I found out that a staff of mine that I have personally trained had been offered my position. 'My tittle but not my exact job'. I should have realized that my boss didn't care (about me) anymore. That he'd given up on me. I'd just been so busy juggling all the shits thrown at me to even notice. I felt cheated and being taken advantage.

Since the day I've started working, not even a single increment I've received nor have I requested. I was happy back than working for my boss because he puts his trust on my capabilities running his business. To think of it now, it's not because of my salary scale the reason I was asked to leave, it's because my boss had moved on from me to the sound of someone new sucking up to him. Someone who he feels it's much more grateful for being hired instead of me.

Anyway, there's a saying goes 'There are some situations that are so egregious that you need to be prepared to lose-or leave your job'. On my side, I wasn't prepared to lose my job yet and for the fact that my boss choose me instead of anyone else. But life has to go on. Things happen for a reason. It's time for me to moved on.